learning to sing.

well, i'm off to some sort of a start... i ended up getting a couple of offers from some friends/musicians to have my voice used in various capacities. learning to harmonize is tricky. i automatically want to go to the lead, and for me it's a challenge to hear more in the song than just the prominent parts. i want to be able to pluck the correct notes from the air and have an innate sense of what musical parts will sound good and full when placed together. the biggest problem i'm having right now is learning how to breathe to be able to sustain a note for what seems like a million years. i run out of steam, and i want so badly to be able to find some sort of trick for enlongating my air flow. all that being said, i am having fun. i almost want to be a singer a little TOO much--i suffer a ridiculous amount of anxiety when i think that i might not be able to hit certain notes or hold them... which can cause me to do just that. i realize that i always sing, no matter what i'm doing or what is going on in my life. my head is perpetually filled with song. how wonderful it would be to sing for a living, and to have people appreciate my voice, both figurative and literal. i will keep trying to push myself through these notes that are haunting me... it's interesting to me how this period in my life feels just like there is a metaphoric musical note that is barely beyond my reach. i haven't hit it yet, but i'm not ready to stop trying because i've heard it and i still hold on to some belief that i will nail it. that note is contentment. i fall short, but if i keep stretching...